prairie daze

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may 5 in 2007


i am home with a sick eliza while jerry and the big kids are at friends’ for cinco de mayo. in the midst of devestating images of the tornado stricken, warnings of more severe weather, i am grateful for my child who is not too ill, for my own cinco de mayo food and drink, and in the corner of my mind and heart, the memory of the babe we miscarried who would have been 6 today… hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.


5 comments on “may 5 in 2007

  1. Oma
    May 5, 2007

    How tender a memory

  2. Opa
    May 6, 2007

    I remember May 5, 2001 with utmost clarity no matter how accurately. Our effort — then as now — was to understand. Instead, we just acknowledged and accepted. And, in the meantime, we’ve let time, and God, and time, and family, and time, and friends, and time, and other children, and time, and… and… and… and… heal us. How precious a gift, indeed. I love you dearly! — Dad.

    Here’s the song that was born on the eve of your child’s passing.

    Here I am
    With nothing
    Absolutely nothing
    Empty-handed, that’s all
    And I wonder
    About everything
    Absolutely everything
    That’s all

    And I wonder
    What all might have been
    Yeah, what all might have been
    I wonder, that’s all
    And deep inside
    I long for everything
    Absolutely everything
    That’s all!

    But, I got you
    When the day is through
    Oh, I thank God I got you
    Nothing more
    Surely nothing less
    I thank God I got you

    Here I stand
    Still with nothing
    Absolutely nothing
    Empty hands, that’s all
    But as I stand
    I see you standing too
    Yeah, I see you standing too
    Standing, that’s good.

    But, I got you
    When the day is through
    Oh, I thank God I got you
    Nothing more
    Surely nothing less
    I thank God I got you

    “I got you” was a gift to my daughter on the eve she and Jerry, her husband, grieved the passing of their unborn child. Everybody everywhere — sometime, somehow — must deal with losses seemingly too difficult to face. How comforting to know the security of family and community.

  3. the neufeld epp family
    May 6, 2007

    i remember tears flowing as you drove me down main street while we listened to the early recording of this song…still precious…still stirs a part of me…thank you for the reminders of what we have.

  4. katie
    May 7, 2007

    i remember that desperation to hold on, and then so quickly having to let go — what a massive feeling.

    loving you. . .

  5. Auntie Bonita
    May 8, 2007

    I, too, remember that day very well. So many tears. So much has happened since, yet we won’t ever forget that time. Much love, dear friends.

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